This week has been quite tough to find time to eat right and to find time to exercise. School is exhausting to say the least. But with Easter coming up and other various things in my life, I know theres bound to be more hiccups coming up.

 

But I am still focused. After Easter, I've planned to start training for my 5k thats in May. I've already gotten some friends to help me start to train and I'm excited because they're both new runners that have done really well. I plan to work on my endurance first. I want to build up my stimina so that I'm not completely exhausted after the first mile.

 

Well everyone, good luck this cold weekend. I was really liking the warm weather workouts. But I guess we'll just have to wait a bit longer for those ;)

I'm currently watching last night's Biggest Loser and Kimmy just made one of the best quotes, "Fear is just a feeling and you can get over it."

 

Totally makes sense. I can over almost anything. I've always been a fighter, so why am I letting my weight overcome me? It doesn't make sense. I lost 51# like it was nothing, but why can't more come off? Have I lost my mojo?

 

I think I need to "reset" myself. Life has changed a lot for me since October 2011. I'm not gonna sit here and make excuses, but those excuses, I let get a hold of me and weigh me down even more. So I really need to work on myself. Because like I've been saying over and over (and I say it to my friends too, its not just me blogging), that this is not a diet, this is a life change. I don't want a fad diet or some "eat this one day, and salad for the next eternity."

This is my life and I need to start taking it over. The next weigh in, I'll be happy with being down to what I started, so I need to lose the 1.6#. I know I'm losing inches at this point because my bra and pants are fitting differently.

 

Now if I could just get a better workout routine, that'd be superb. School is killing me, being on break and then going back, killer!

 

So... bottom line, I need to start getting my life, the way I need/want it. Then, other things, the less important things in life, will follow.

Happy St. Patrick's Day Everyone. In all, I had a blast. I witnessed things that amazed me. I rode the Cleveland Rapid (boy was that "scary"). I faced a crowd of like a bazillion people. In all, I had a good time.

 

I also went to Whole Foods and got some goodies. Now I know why people say Whole "paycheck" foods. I only got like 8 things and my tab was over $40. But that's okay. I am progressing very slowly and I'm happy that at least something is happening.

 

Last year, with the help of my trainer, CJ, I managed to lose 51#. I really don't remember those pounds coming off. All I did was cut out fast food, pop and work out. I managed to avoid pizza night and avoid some foods that I knew where bad for me, but other than that, I didn't restrict myself. I didn't count calories and I was happy. I was a fat fighting machine. I need to get back into that groove. I wish I could just snap my fingers and get there, but that isn't happening.

 

I need to be realistic. Feeding my body only the recommended nutritional value isn't going to work. That is going to be another failure because it's not realistic. Like yesterday, who couldn't go without the Corned Beef? Yum!

 

So I'm gonna to plan out my week's meals today and start back the groove. I've gotta map this plan out before it takes me over. I don't wanna be a yo-yo dieter. That's not productive. I already lost 51#. I did gain 11# of that back, so I've gotta get back to where I was and then dominate this. Because this is my life and I only get one shot.

I was so proud of myself for yesterday. It all started with me running late. I had nothing to eat but thankfully someone let me a bagel of theirs so I wasn't starving. I ate almost all the bagel when I was overwhelmed with "ew, this thing isn't any good," so I threw it away and proceeded on with my day. That was a revelation in itself. I usually don't throw things away, I'll finish them or pawn them on someone else. But I threw it away and all was well. I've only been eating well for a short time now but I think bagels are a thing in the past and I can honestly say, I probably won't miss them.

 

So after Monday's brutal bootcamp, I decided that cardio was the only way to go yesterday. My back, shoulders, legs, arms and neck were killing me, so anything else was out of the question. So I went to the gym last night and did 30 minutes on my old friend, the elliptical. Its been since last year since I've been on that thing. I think I lost most of my weight with it, so I'm thinking of incorporating the elliptical back into my routine.

 

But I felt great yesterday. I ate well and I made time (even though I've been exhausted with this time change) to work out.

 

So onto Wednesday... I've gotta keep pushing myself to get into some kinda routine because I start Tuesday night school back up on the 20th. I'll be honest, I'm not ready for it to start again. Night school isn't for the weak!

 

Another day, another challenge. This isn't a diet. This is a lifestyle change and I need to keep reminding myself that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I need to remind myself that eventually, I'll be able to have a girls night out and not so many restrictions. That there will be a time when I can meet my goal and go into the clothing stores that I want to go into. Thats when it'll be worth it.

 

Yesterday was a good day, diet wise. I made a bad decision once, I ate one Oreo. Besides that, I made great choices and I'm overall pleased. Also went to bootcamp with my fellow classmate, Maria. We got our butt kicked. Well, we should say our legs kicked. I'm already feeling it this morning. Oy, leg raises, how I hate you.

 

So tonight I plan on getting in at least a 30 minute walk tonight. Hopefully its nice again tonight so I can enjoy the weather. If not, theres always the gym!

This past week has been great with my eating habits. I've incorporated many realistic but yet healthy changes into my diet and I'm excited to keep moving forward. I went to the produce stand yesterday and bought lots of yummy produce so I can keep going on my active changes. As I was standing in line, waiting to check out, all I could think about was how I can't wait for warmer weather. Not just to be outside, but all the yummy local produce that Northeast Ohio has to offer.

 

So I'm going to go to Walmart today and buying a new bicycle. With this upcoming weather change, I can go for quick bike rides and I can even ride my bike to the gym. Considering my gym is like 2 miles from my house.

 

So this week, I'm not only gonna focus on planning my meals, I'm going to try and focus on going to the gym more. I only went twice last week (only to my Monday and Wednesday bootcamp classes). So I'd like to try to go Monday - Thursday and then Saturday. Then Sunday and Friday will be my "rest days." I have my work cut out for me. I've gotta make these changes again so they stick.

 

 

Yesterday was a great day. I ate well. I was in a time crunch and hunrgry so I stopped at Heinens and made a delicious salad. If you've never been to their salad bar, its amazing. It has almost anything you'd want on a salad. So I was happy that I stopped and got a healthy salad versus my regular Chipotle or other fast food place.

 

So then I went to bootcamp at the Perry CFC. It was a great class but it got cut short because someone pulled the fire alarm so the building had to be evacuated. So we didn't get to finish our class. But thats okay, because in the short of 35 minutes that I was there, I got my butt kicked. And my knee was feeling the pain. I definately over did some of the moves that I probably shouldn't have. I have to keep reminding myself that I need to get this knee better before I start trying to do things again. But that, in itself, is hard.

 

For dinner, I made a healthy chicken garlic parmesean. The family loves when I make this, its so quick and easy. Had my veggies with that and my meal was complete.

 

But last night was a nightmare sleeping. My knee kept me awake for most of the night. I feel horrible, I had to cancel on fellow contestant, Alisa, who had plans with me to go to the YMCA this morning. Again, Alisa, I'm really sorry for canceling, we'll have to reschedule.

 

So, onto tomorrow in hopes that I can eat better again and maybe get some low to no impact exercise done.

 

    Happy Sunday Everyone!

 

Congrats to the big winners in the contest. I'm proud of you. You all have worked hard and done your due diligence, so hats off to you.

 

Yesterday was my little brother's 18th birthday. We went to Zappetellis' and lets just say, I had no control. All that pasta, pizza and fresh rolls? Oh my, they were delicious. But like I said in my last post, Wednesday is another beginning because that'll be when I can get my finances in check and I'll be able to go shopping that night/day.

 

Other than that, life is decent. I have bootcamp class tomorrow night with my wonderful Perry CFC ladies and our instructor, CJ. If you ever want your butt kicked, come join our class. Only $5 walk in fee!

 

And.. yoga tomorrow night. I've found a new happiness with practicing yoga at the Perry CFC. The instructor, Lindsey, is great. She has a real respect for what she practices and shares her passion with us every Monday night. I feel so great after her class!

 

Well readers, until next time!

I had a bad week again. I am fighting off what feels like a nasty sinus infection. I've also tried to change my schedule a little bit and everything is just complete chaos.

 

I am however, starting my diet again on Wednesday. I have to wait until then so that my financial situation can get better.

 

Well, I wish everyone the best.

 

For now.. I need to get myself off to better health!